urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mapremrasa Rasa Rasa 2005-11-03T22:01:34Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mapremrasa:303 2005-11-03T22:01:34Z 2005-11-03T22:01:34Z I thought it was about time I got an LJ. I've had an Open Diary for a long time, but have not really written in it lately. (if you're interested in reading my old diary for some reason, it can be found at <a href="http://www.opendiary.com/entrylist.asp?authorcode=A243736">http://www.opendiary.com/entrylist.asp?authorcode=A243736</a> ) Nobody I know uses OD any more, but a bunch of people have LJ's. So, here I am, jumping on the bandwagon.<br /><br />I've been meaning to journal more- I used to write every day. I bought a new paper journal every few months, at one time, and now, I've barely touched mine since I got back from vacation this summer. I wrote a bit while I was in Quebec, but before and after, there was a lull. <br />Lately, I'm not sure if I haven't had anything to say, or if I just haven't felt like being so open with myself.. I think that journalling requires honesty. Sometimes I write things I didn't realize I felt until I see the words in front of me. Generally speaking, this is helpful, but sometimes I just don't feel like engaging in self-inquiry. Not writing is an avoidance tactic for me. <br />However, I have been doing this avoid-dance with myself for awhile, and it's not really getting me anywhere. So I'm going to try to write more. I feel out of touch with myself. <br /><br />Today, I'm at Chris' place. I slept over, but did not sleep well. He's at work now. I hate when he leaves for work in the morning.. I wake up when he gets out of bed, or when he leans in to kiss me goodbye, and I get a brief feeling of elation.. that just-opened-my-eyes-to-the-world-and-HEY!-I-have-a-boyfriend feeling..... aaaannnnnnd then he departs. I have more days off than he does. I would like to work more. (not just so I can leave with him more frequently, more practically, I could use the money.)<br /><br />Chris took an hour lunch break, and came home to see me. We ate some fried veggie sausages and frozen french fries. I'm still kind of hungry. I would like some fruit, but he doesn't have any- I frequently tease him about having scurvy, because he doesn't usually have fruit. He's even worse for consistent grocery shopping than I am. I bought some pomegranate juice last night, and some mango lemonade.. I wish I hadn't already drank it. I'm thirsty too. Water will do. I would go out and pick up something fruity for eating or drinking, or both, but I don't have a key to get back into the apartment. Meh.<br /><br />He said he'd like it if I was here when he got off, too. That's why I'm still here, typing away the afternoon- only a little more than an hour to go. We made plans to have a shower together, followed by some 'rogering', when he gets back. I'm rapt with anticipation. ;)<br /><br />After that, I would like to buy some groceries and cook a nice dinner for us, and go to my place and watch 'the Ring 2', while snuggling profusely, and to fit some laundry in there somewhere. I would like to have a nice, contented, relaxing day off today.<br /><br />I also need to go buy some food for my snake.. I recently discovered that the temperatures were not right in her vivarium (damn unreliable stick-on crap thermometers!) and so she's been on a hunger strike the last couple times I offered food.. but I'm hoping that now that the temps are fixed, she'll take it. I found a guy in Edmonton who gets frozen rats in large quantities and sells them for cheap. It's illegal to breed them in Alberta, so the pet store prices are ridiculous. I went to a one last week where they charge $20 for a large rat.. the small ones that I currently feed are $7; this guy sells them for $3. I'm hoping to go see him tonight and get a bunch. <br /><br />I feel like stopping writing now. I was going to write, "I don't have anything else to say", but that wouldn't really be true. I have plenty of things to say, I just don't feel like saying them at this time. So, I guess that's it for now.